ayahmora

*01/10/2012*


I miss the touch of your hand tightly held with mine
I miss seeing that cute gleam in your eyes
I miss your sweet goodnights
I miss the first greeting every morning
I miss your scent
I miss waiting for your reply
I miss how you tease me until I get angry
I miss your coldness

I miss your sarcasm
I miss the warmth of your hug
I miss your sweet kiss
I miss how we fight over small things

I miss smiling to myself because of your replies
I miss staring at you secretly then I’ll just look away every time you saw me doing so
I miss being happy just by thinking about you
I miss how you react with my cheesy lines

I miss how we imagine ourselves together when we’re apart
I miss looking forward everyday hoping we’d spend time together
I miss the feeling when I’m with you
I miss missing you even when you’re with me

I miss wanting to be with you when we just parted
but what I miss most is YOU. :/

..written four days after my heartbreak. I’m mad,hurt and bitter since last week but after reading this piece i have written I don’t feel mad and bitter anymore :)

*01/08/2012*

I never really intended to fall for you.

I didn’t even realized I’d be hit this bad

It’s been so long since I’ve felt this strong for someone

Maybe because I’m guarding my heart,

Afraid of getting hurt, being left alone.

I tried neglecting my feelings for you

But the more I try, the more I fall.

So I gave in, even if I’m so afraid

Even if I’m unsure, I took the risk

Just for you, I risked my heart,

My heart that was once been broken so bad.

Well, I don’t know if I really have a choice though,

It’s just between loving you or loving you in silence,

But I found the courage to do what my heart tells me.

So despite the fear, I showed my feelings.

We’ve been happy, you’ve been my happiness
and until now you’re still my happiness.
Now, I don’t know what to do with this heart
crap, it’s still longing for you.

You are still my first thought when I wake up
and the last before I go to sleep.
All day, I just keep on wondering what you are doing,
how are you feeling.
Everything reminds me of you, every song,
every place, every simple thing connects to you.
thanks for making my heart happy again
even if it’s just for a while, I’m still glad it happened
but now I’m back to having a lonesome heart
without you I’m just simply happy-less.